You can’t just make the voice of doubt go away by drowning it out. By trying to sink it with affirmations about what you want to believe, or what you think you should believe. Or worse, what others want you to believe and think you ought to believe. You can’t drown it out by praying more fervently, by singing louder, by turning up the volume on your worship CD, by serving harder, by seeking better, by talking to the right people, or reading the greatest books. Once doubt finds its voice, it is there to stay. It always was there, it just had a hard time speaking up over the din and had to shout a bit louder to be heard. When it is finally listened to though, it quickly grows in confidence.
Because the more doubt speaks, the more you realize it isn’t speaking lies, it is simply commenting on how things actually look to you. And even if what it is speaking isn’t always right, even if it may be mistaken at times, and if it may change from time to time, it is really truly what you think. And what you think, how you see the world, is based on how you see things, not on how you are supposed to see them. And that is not a matter of what is Truth and what are Lies, it is a matter of who you are. And that isn’t anything to be afraid of listening to. It isn’t the monster in the closet or a demon in your head. And things that provoke doubt might be doing that because they are reality, facts which are in conflict with what you believe. And there isn’t anything wrong with you, that is who you are.