skipping small group
Skipping church small group tonight, again. Wife is too busy preparing for work tomorrow, though she would like to go. So that gives me a convenient excuse, because though I like the people, I don’t really care to go, I have no interest in going, other than to support my relationship with my wife. So why should I go?
Heavy stuff, because I have to put up with getting “the look.” The one that says, “we have to talk,” even though we don’t have to talk because we both know what the other is thinking already. The same look as when I picked up Asimov instead of the bible last night. Because it isn’t enough to read about the bible, why wouldn’t I want to read the bible? So it’s the damned if you do, damned if you don’t, part of deconversion. That you just have to live with, because you can either live a lie, or be honest. But being honest doesn’t really make everyone happy? And sometimes what you believe is more important to people than who you are.
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